Post by Valentina Madison on Nov 17, 2013 19:00:54 GMT -5
I’ve had just about enough of this nonsense! I had a feeling on the back of my mind that he was going to show up to Aftershock out of it as usual. I just don’t understand people like Christian Carter. They seem to only be clean and sober whenever they feel like it. I can’t put all the blame on him for the outcome of Aftershock because I was the one that made the risk and I don’t regret it one bit. I will say though, that if he gave one shred of respect to ANYBODY, even himself, because clearly, he has no respect for himself, the outcome could have been different last week. Last week just adds to the frustrations that I am feeling right now.
Last Wednesday: Back at Home
After the stress of recent events, Valentina Madison decided to get away from it all for a few days and to head back home to Evanston, Illinois. Once again, much is on her mind. She’s in her own living room, contemplating what could be next for her. She knows that all she can do at the moment is push on and give it another go next week. She looks forward to it, considering the respect she has for Aeryn Ashfield, one half of Phoenix Rising and her opponent for the coming Reloaded. While she’s taking in everything and thinking through her next chapter in her wrestling career, she looks up and starts to seem a tad angry.
Valentina Madison: I’m starting to wonder what everyone expects of me.
It seems random, but it’s an interesting point that Valentina is making. Throughout her entire life, she’s always felt like she’s had to meet other people’s expectations even if she personally had no desire to pursue said expectations whatsoever.
Valentina Madison: People in MPW, knowing that I’m a rookie, most likely expect me to not be a ‘main player’ for a long time because I’m still new to this business. I can see that. I’ve studied behavior toward rookies in just about any sport. Some rookies go through some hard times, some hazing if you will, but it’s mostly in good fun. And yet, there are some seriously messed up situations that rookies have gone through, especially that scandal that the Miami Dolphins are going through right now. It sickens me.
Valentina looks around to collect some thoughts, as she continues.
Valentina Madison: But, that’s not the only expectation that some people in MPW may have. There are people like those idiots in the Iconic Aggression. They expect me to be easy prey for them because of my rookie status. They pass me off as someone that’s no threat, someone that has no staying power, someone that’s just “in the way” of what they want to accomplish. In other words, the expectations of people like me are low and one can say that it may be a good thing because it alleviates any pressure I may have on me, but there’s the flip effect of that logic. Truth be told, I’m typically INSULTED if people have low expectations of me, because they see me as an afterthought.
Valentina looks across the room, and notices a trophy case of every academic trophy and achievement she’s ever had in her life. She’s got mixed feelings of it all. She’s proud of what she’s been able to do, but on the other hand, more than half of all that is what others expected of her.
Valentina Madison: And yet, looking at that trophy case I have across the room right now, I wouldn’t be surprised if there are people within the company that have high expectations of me based on the small sample size I’ve been able to put out there. Defeating Impaler was no small feat, no pun intended, and I’m quite positive that after I did that, any expectations of me went up dramatically. Naturally, a doubter would ask me “would the pressure of all those expectations get to you?”
Valentina laughs and she stands up and walks to the trophy case. A closer look reveals a range of trophies, medals and certificates including a spelling bee trophy, a gold academic achievement medal from her high school days, her college diploma and various representations of Honor Roll recognitions from her entire life.
Valentina Madison: I think if you look at all this, I can say for a fact that I’ve dealt with the pressure of high expectations, and the expectations of my own parents were enormous as soon as they realized how bright I was. This trophy case proves I can meet high expectations and I know that any detractors that see this will say “it’s not wrestling, it doesn’t matter”.
She pauses to laugh again.
Valentina Madison: And my response to that? I’ve been in MPW for only six weeks. Rome wasn’t built in a day, I’ve only had two matches with title implications, and it’s not like I achieved everything I ever have, overnight. Of course, being the humble person that I am, I have no desire to flaunt and gloat about my accomplishments, but today was merely a demonstration of how I AM capable of meeting any kind of expectation: low, high, neutral, it doesn’t matter. Despite my setbacks of late, despite a piece of social trash like Christian Carter holding me down, I’ll meet those expectations and I’ll start building a NEW trophy case of wrestling accomplishments! Here’s to the hunt!
Valentina turns and disappears down her hallway and the scene ends.
November 17, 2013
It’s a couple of hours before Reloaded and Valentina is thinking about her match with Aeryn Ashfield that’s going to take place later tonight. She doesn’t know what Aeryn expects from her, though having heard her words, she may have an idea. But, she’s not going to soak in those words for too long, she knows she can only worry about her and that’s it.
Valentina Madison: Before I get into this, I just want to say a few things to that poor excuse of a human being. Christian Carter, you want to blame me for Aftershock and you want to call me a slur that’s about as old as dirt. You really have it in for me don’t you? Then again, perhaps you don’t because ever since I came into MPW, you have been a serious thorn in my side. You drank yourself into oblivion before our match because you wouldn’t take me seriously. You were an anchor when we took on Chrissy and Laila. Two weeks ago, you continued to embarrass yourself with your pathetic assault on Phoenix Rising and making the open challenge that you did. Some would say that I’m an idiot for taking it, but I stand by the fact that I took an opportunity that was out there, even if it wasn’t the greatest. Then, last week, you embarrass yourself again. I’m to blame? You’re the one that lost last week. Ignoramus! I warned you many times to not weigh me down. I’m done taking it, and tomorrow night, I’m making my statement heard, in more ways than one.
And that, I feel, is a perfect segway to my match tonight. Aeryn Ashfield, one half of the Phoenix Rising team that represents MPW as the Tag Team Champions as well as the winner of the High Stakes ladder match. Now Aeryn, as I’ve mentioned before, I have so much respect for you for what you’ve been able to accomplish in MPW. I know that winning that High Stakes ladder match was not easy, but I did some more research on you and it didn’t hit me until I did it. Ever since you won that ladder match, you haven’t competed in a singles match! Your match against me is your first singles match since then because since then, you have been teaming and winning with your partner and I guess, new boyfriend, Soul Shadow. From a psychological standpoint, that could put you at a minor disadvantage. After all, when you lean on somebody for so long, and that’s no disrespect because you’ve held your own just as much as Soul has, you start getting used to leaning on that person and you lose your focus on yourself. I’ve wrestled a few singles matches, and I haven’t lost one yet though I know that’s not going to last forever. However, if you think you can rest on what you’ve done, not only will I be disappointed in you, but I will teach you a lesson in that as well.
It was an honor challenging you for the tag team titles at Aftershock. While you and Soul Shadow came out the victors, I hold no ill regard because the better team won. But there’s no “team” now Aeryn. There’s no Soul Shadow to prop you up or Christian Carter to anchor me to the ocean floor. It’s just you and me, one on one. But, let me ask you a question Aeryn. How do you manage the expectations people have of you? I know you haven’t been in the company all that long, but in the short time that you’ve been here, you’ve made a tremendous impact, an impact that I aspire to have for myself in the near future. Were you aware of what others expected of you? And if so, what were those expectations? Were they high? Were they low? I’ll offer a hypothesis based on what I know about wrestling. When a wrestler, especially a woman as much as it disgusts me to admit, joins a new company, often, the expectations will be low because they’re the “newcomer”. Some lose motivation and think they can rest easy, but then there’s those like you that don’t worry about it and exceed low expectations with flying colors. Considering what I know and observed, I don’t think there were too much expectations for you when you came in.
But what about now Aeryn? You’re half of the tag champions, you have a title shot whenever you want, and you’re a member of the best tag team in MPW today. Those expectations of you have definitely increased tenfold. Compared to you, most expectations of me are completely miniscule and I am POSITIVE that when people made their predictions for this match between us, the expectation is that you, having far more experience and accolades than me in this business, will be the victor tonight over me. I’d take that as an insult myself if I didn’t admire and respect you so much Aeryn.
How you handle these expectations, determines the outcome! Best of luck tonight Aeryn!
Last Wednesday: Back at Home
After the stress of recent events, Valentina Madison decided to get away from it all for a few days and to head back home to Evanston, Illinois. Once again, much is on her mind. She’s in her own living room, contemplating what could be next for her. She knows that all she can do at the moment is push on and give it another go next week. She looks forward to it, considering the respect she has for Aeryn Ashfield, one half of Phoenix Rising and her opponent for the coming Reloaded. While she’s taking in everything and thinking through her next chapter in her wrestling career, she looks up and starts to seem a tad angry.
Valentina Madison: I’m starting to wonder what everyone expects of me.
It seems random, but it’s an interesting point that Valentina is making. Throughout her entire life, she’s always felt like she’s had to meet other people’s expectations even if she personally had no desire to pursue said expectations whatsoever.
Valentina Madison: People in MPW, knowing that I’m a rookie, most likely expect me to not be a ‘main player’ for a long time because I’m still new to this business. I can see that. I’ve studied behavior toward rookies in just about any sport. Some rookies go through some hard times, some hazing if you will, but it’s mostly in good fun. And yet, there are some seriously messed up situations that rookies have gone through, especially that scandal that the Miami Dolphins are going through right now. It sickens me.
Valentina looks around to collect some thoughts, as she continues.
Valentina Madison: But, that’s not the only expectation that some people in MPW may have. There are people like those idiots in the Iconic Aggression. They expect me to be easy prey for them because of my rookie status. They pass me off as someone that’s no threat, someone that has no staying power, someone that’s just “in the way” of what they want to accomplish. In other words, the expectations of people like me are low and one can say that it may be a good thing because it alleviates any pressure I may have on me, but there’s the flip effect of that logic. Truth be told, I’m typically INSULTED if people have low expectations of me, because they see me as an afterthought.
Valentina looks across the room, and notices a trophy case of every academic trophy and achievement she’s ever had in her life. She’s got mixed feelings of it all. She’s proud of what she’s been able to do, but on the other hand, more than half of all that is what others expected of her.
Valentina Madison: And yet, looking at that trophy case I have across the room right now, I wouldn’t be surprised if there are people within the company that have high expectations of me based on the small sample size I’ve been able to put out there. Defeating Impaler was no small feat, no pun intended, and I’m quite positive that after I did that, any expectations of me went up dramatically. Naturally, a doubter would ask me “would the pressure of all those expectations get to you?”
Valentina laughs and she stands up and walks to the trophy case. A closer look reveals a range of trophies, medals and certificates including a spelling bee trophy, a gold academic achievement medal from her high school days, her college diploma and various representations of Honor Roll recognitions from her entire life.
Valentina Madison: I think if you look at all this, I can say for a fact that I’ve dealt with the pressure of high expectations, and the expectations of my own parents were enormous as soon as they realized how bright I was. This trophy case proves I can meet high expectations and I know that any detractors that see this will say “it’s not wrestling, it doesn’t matter”.
She pauses to laugh again.
Valentina Madison: And my response to that? I’ve been in MPW for only six weeks. Rome wasn’t built in a day, I’ve only had two matches with title implications, and it’s not like I achieved everything I ever have, overnight. Of course, being the humble person that I am, I have no desire to flaunt and gloat about my accomplishments, but today was merely a demonstration of how I AM capable of meeting any kind of expectation: low, high, neutral, it doesn’t matter. Despite my setbacks of late, despite a piece of social trash like Christian Carter holding me down, I’ll meet those expectations and I’ll start building a NEW trophy case of wrestling accomplishments! Here’s to the hunt!
Valentina turns and disappears down her hallway and the scene ends.
November 17, 2013
It’s a couple of hours before Reloaded and Valentina is thinking about her match with Aeryn Ashfield that’s going to take place later tonight. She doesn’t know what Aeryn expects from her, though having heard her words, she may have an idea. But, she’s not going to soak in those words for too long, she knows she can only worry about her and that’s it.
Valentina Madison: Before I get into this, I just want to say a few things to that poor excuse of a human being. Christian Carter, you want to blame me for Aftershock and you want to call me a slur that’s about as old as dirt. You really have it in for me don’t you? Then again, perhaps you don’t because ever since I came into MPW, you have been a serious thorn in my side. You drank yourself into oblivion before our match because you wouldn’t take me seriously. You were an anchor when we took on Chrissy and Laila. Two weeks ago, you continued to embarrass yourself with your pathetic assault on Phoenix Rising and making the open challenge that you did. Some would say that I’m an idiot for taking it, but I stand by the fact that I took an opportunity that was out there, even if it wasn’t the greatest. Then, last week, you embarrass yourself again. I’m to blame? You’re the one that lost last week. Ignoramus! I warned you many times to not weigh me down. I’m done taking it, and tomorrow night, I’m making my statement heard, in more ways than one.
And that, I feel, is a perfect segway to my match tonight. Aeryn Ashfield, one half of the Phoenix Rising team that represents MPW as the Tag Team Champions as well as the winner of the High Stakes ladder match. Now Aeryn, as I’ve mentioned before, I have so much respect for you for what you’ve been able to accomplish in MPW. I know that winning that High Stakes ladder match was not easy, but I did some more research on you and it didn’t hit me until I did it. Ever since you won that ladder match, you haven’t competed in a singles match! Your match against me is your first singles match since then because since then, you have been teaming and winning with your partner and I guess, new boyfriend, Soul Shadow. From a psychological standpoint, that could put you at a minor disadvantage. After all, when you lean on somebody for so long, and that’s no disrespect because you’ve held your own just as much as Soul has, you start getting used to leaning on that person and you lose your focus on yourself. I’ve wrestled a few singles matches, and I haven’t lost one yet though I know that’s not going to last forever. However, if you think you can rest on what you’ve done, not only will I be disappointed in you, but I will teach you a lesson in that as well.
It was an honor challenging you for the tag team titles at Aftershock. While you and Soul Shadow came out the victors, I hold no ill regard because the better team won. But there’s no “team” now Aeryn. There’s no Soul Shadow to prop you up or Christian Carter to anchor me to the ocean floor. It’s just you and me, one on one. But, let me ask you a question Aeryn. How do you manage the expectations people have of you? I know you haven’t been in the company all that long, but in the short time that you’ve been here, you’ve made a tremendous impact, an impact that I aspire to have for myself in the near future. Were you aware of what others expected of you? And if so, what were those expectations? Were they high? Were they low? I’ll offer a hypothesis based on what I know about wrestling. When a wrestler, especially a woman as much as it disgusts me to admit, joins a new company, often, the expectations will be low because they’re the “newcomer”. Some lose motivation and think they can rest easy, but then there’s those like you that don’t worry about it and exceed low expectations with flying colors. Considering what I know and observed, I don’t think there were too much expectations for you when you came in.
But what about now Aeryn? You’re half of the tag champions, you have a title shot whenever you want, and you’re a member of the best tag team in MPW today. Those expectations of you have definitely increased tenfold. Compared to you, most expectations of me are completely miniscule and I am POSITIVE that when people made their predictions for this match between us, the expectation is that you, having far more experience and accolades than me in this business, will be the victor tonight over me. I’d take that as an insult myself if I didn’t admire and respect you so much Aeryn.
How you handle these expectations, determines the outcome! Best of luck tonight Aeryn!