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[Matt Steele]

[Back at his motel room Morten sits and stares at the phone... trying to gather the courage to pick it]

Just pick it up and call her... you know you want to... you know she will talk to you... so why is it so damn hard to just do it...

[Sighing he grabs the beer standing next to the phone and drinks]

Do it!

[He picks up the phone, his hands are shaking and sweat pearls down his forehead as he dials the number... it rings... a soft feminine voice answers on the other end, making his hearts jump into his throat]

Hello... hello... who is it?

Its me Kelly

Morten!... finally! you've had me worried sick!... where are you... are you all right?...

Yeah I'm allright no need to worry... I'm in Las Vegas trying out for a new promotion here... and I just needed to hear you voice... and tell you that I'm sor...

Don't do that!... don't start apologizing again!... It was an accident!... Morten it wasn't your fault!!!

But hadn't I let myself been swallowed up by Primal I would have been able to think clear....

Stop it!... don't hide behind Primal... you are Primal, he is part of you Morten, not someone who takes control over you... he is you... he is part of the man I fell in love with...

[The big Dane gets misty eyed as he hears her confessing this]

I'm sorry maybe your right I just feel so lost without you I feel like right now I'm split between to persons... between being the Morten who loves and wants to protect you and Primal the mindless monster

[Her soft tone turns hard and he could her her crying on the other end of the line... tears slowly start to run down his face]

You were the one who left me!... you were the one who couldn't bare to look me in the eye after the accident and chose to run back home to Denmark to hide, so don't tell me you feel lost without me... you don't have the right to do that!

I know... I just couldn't take it, I was afraid to hurt you again if I didn't lock Primal away and I couldn't get rid of him with you and Ryan around to remind me of him!... but now I'm starting to fear that I cant do this without being him

Morten listen to me!... you never stopped being him... if you had you wouldn't have called... if you had you wouldn't have been you!!!

[His eyes widen, like her words had hit him like a sledgehammer, smashing the reality into his brain... the big man breaks down unable to stop his tears he cries out like a child]

Your right but I'm so afraid, I'm so sorry and I'm so angry with myself for not seeing it... Kelly can you forgive me, I really never meant for you to get caught up in all this, I never realized I used what happened to you to try to hide from myself!!!

[The tenderness returns to her voice]

Of cause I can I did that long ago... but you have to forgive yourself... you know I'll be there for you if you want me to be there Morten... I love you

I love you to, but I'm not sure I can forgive myself yet!

What if I flew in for your first match? then we could have this talk face to face and we can figure this out together?

I would like that... I missed you so much

I missed you to... but I have to go now see you soon

See you

They hang up, he lets himself fall back onto the with and sigh in relief before fading into dreams of happiness and joy]