Post by Matt Steele on Aug 27, 2012 3:44:25 GMT -5
Its been long since I last had this feeling, since I felt this this discontent with myself and my performance in the ring.
I lost and no excuses, truth is that hadn't Titan interfered, I would have been pinned. Kried had me and there was nothing I could do I really failed both him and me in that match.Worst part is I was really looking forward to it, really looking forward to my first match after I put the bottle away.
So now I have a choice either keep dwelling in my own self pity or look forward and do better next time.
Yesterday I got word that my next match, will be against Christian Carter. Properly the guy in this place that knows most about what I've been through.
[Jimmy Fatal is walking down the streets of Las Vegas on his way to his daily A.A. meeting, the thoughts about past and future events keep flooding his mind making him feel uneasy, as he steps into the small room, where a lot of, what has become, familiar faces greet him. He dumps down in a chair and waits for the meeting to start.
He sits through the same procedures as every meeting, introductions, anniversaries and the text or the day, but today he can't really concentrate about the meaning, his next opponent is occupying his mind.
As the end of the meeting draws near, he finally had enough and stands]
My name is Jimmy and I'm an alcoholic
Lately I've been filled with doubts about myself, both as a man and as a wrestler. In my match last week I failed both myself and my opponent. I have come to terms with this and I'm ready to move on from that chapter of my story. So this week I'm facing a guy, who fights the same demons as me, the sickness that has infected both mine and your lives.Before I joined the program I would have feared this man, who in so many ways is a mirror image of myself. But now I am just feeling the excitement of going one on one with him. I fear that I will get overconfident and forget my humility. So I've decided to ask you top help me, by holding me to this...
[He looks down and opens his hand, where he is been clutching his 24hour medallion.]
I remember getting this medallion from my first sponsor and remember that I for the first time ever let go of myself and just felt thankful, so today I want to share this with you, to share my thankfulness to Christian Carter that he will step in that ring with me and share his wrestling skill and knowledge with me.I can't change the past, so I have to look to the future
[As he he finishes the meeting is about to end and they all stand and join hands for the Serenity prayer]
God,
Grant me the serenity to accept,
the things I cannot change.
The courage
to change the things I can
and the wisdom
to know the difference
[As the group finally breaks up, Jimmy is smiling, he walks out on the street where David Alexander is waiting for him and they start to walk towards the gym to train]
I lost and no excuses, truth is that hadn't Titan interfered, I would have been pinned. Kried had me and there was nothing I could do I really failed both him and me in that match.Worst part is I was really looking forward to it, really looking forward to my first match after I put the bottle away.
So now I have a choice either keep dwelling in my own self pity or look forward and do better next time.
Yesterday I got word that my next match, will be against Christian Carter. Properly the guy in this place that knows most about what I've been through.
[Jimmy Fatal is walking down the streets of Las Vegas on his way to his daily A.A. meeting, the thoughts about past and future events keep flooding his mind making him feel uneasy, as he steps into the small room, where a lot of, what has become, familiar faces greet him. He dumps down in a chair and waits for the meeting to start.
He sits through the same procedures as every meeting, introductions, anniversaries and the text or the day, but today he can't really concentrate about the meaning, his next opponent is occupying his mind.
As the end of the meeting draws near, he finally had enough and stands]
My name is Jimmy and I'm an alcoholic
Lately I've been filled with doubts about myself, both as a man and as a wrestler. In my match last week I failed both myself and my opponent. I have come to terms with this and I'm ready to move on from that chapter of my story. So this week I'm facing a guy, who fights the same demons as me, the sickness that has infected both mine and your lives.Before I joined the program I would have feared this man, who in so many ways is a mirror image of myself. But now I am just feeling the excitement of going one on one with him. I fear that I will get overconfident and forget my humility. So I've decided to ask you top help me, by holding me to this...
[He looks down and opens his hand, where he is been clutching his 24hour medallion.]
I remember getting this medallion from my first sponsor and remember that I for the first time ever let go of myself and just felt thankful, so today I want to share this with you, to share my thankfulness to Christian Carter that he will step in that ring with me and share his wrestling skill and knowledge with me.I can't change the past, so I have to look to the future
[As he he finishes the meeting is about to end and they all stand and join hands for the Serenity prayer]
God,
Grant me the serenity to accept,
the things I cannot change.
The courage
to change the things I can
and the wisdom
to know the difference
[As the group finally breaks up, Jimmy is smiling, he walks out on the street where David Alexander is waiting for him and they start to walk towards the gym to train]